The Inner Workings of a Chibi.

Oct 18

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timelord1-deactivated20140310 asked: I just read your article on cosplay on XoJane - came to it via Doctor Who Cosplayers on Facebook. I just wanted to say you are awesome, I love EVERY one of your cosplays and seriously I would totally friend stalk you and want to hang out if we lived in the same town. :) Keep doing what you're doing - you already know you've won the internet. :)

Wow!  This article is really getting around, that’s amazing!  Thank you so much for reading  <3  

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Anonymous asked: I don't know if this happened ages ago and everyone's over it or something but I just saw your post about the Princess Peach cosplay and the people who were mean about it. I just want to say, it's probably the best Princess Peach cosplay I've ever seen (THE DRESS IS AMAZING) And the pictures with Yoshi are actually adorable~ I can't believe how awful some people were being! Unbelievable.

The Princess Peach cosplay thing happened a short time ago, a couple of days ago, actually.  Well, more like a week ago.  It’s just that I also wrote an article about plus sized cosplay, too  <3  It can be read here:  http://www.xojane.com/issues/im-a-plus-size-cosplayer

eatingbubbles asked: Hey I have to say I love love love your peach cosplay it was flawless, Also I would love to be friends and talk some. I cosplay too and I am a plus size. The thing is I have been insecure about my image because of words. and I envy that you can be stronger than I'll ever be about it. It gets to the point I don't want to eat because I am desperate to look "normal" for everyone else and seeing your post made me think. I am not here to please others but to live life to the fullest. Thank you.

We can definitely talk, whenever you want  :)  That’s what the ask box is for  <3  

I’m going to be honest.  I was insecure about my image before cosplay.  While I did grow up with some confident ladies who were plus sized, we were worlds different.  On top of me being fat, I was a geek, both academically AND with the things I was into (anime, video games, ect.)  I was in high school in the 90s.  Back then, both anime and video games were still pretty new.  Now, if you think that being a girl gamer gets crap now, or being a black nerd, or being fat, you should’ve seen it back then.  The only difference, back then, is that people didn’t have the internet to hide behind.  

Now I wasn’t like, ridiculously bashed or anything, but I knew I was definitely weird compared to everyone else.  I was a fat, black girl who would rather play Street Fighter or Super Mario World instead of going to parties and things like that.  I wasn’t really interested in dating, and the guys who tried really just wanted to “pop my cherry,” as they called it (do they still call it that?)  So they weren’t really interested in ME, but in having sex with the virgin, because my friends were sexually active and I wasn’t.  The first time a guy ever tried that? I was 11.  I think they were also thinking that I’d be easy because I was this big, geek girl, so I think they assumed that my self esteem would be shot?  And, honestly, it kind of was, sort of.  I mean sure, I wanted attention, and it was nice until I figured out what they really, really wanted and then I’d push them away.  It also helped that I was scared about getting pregnant, since my mom got pregnant with my brother when she was 16 and girls at my school were getting pregnant.  Even my first real boyfriend did the exact same thing.  We were together for a year then he flat out stopped talking to me because I wouldn’t sleep with him when he came to see me in college.  Self esteem?  What’s that?  

Fortunately, though, I went to college away from home.  I love my friends back at home and my family, but I think getting away helped.  I got to meet all these people who were actually into anime and video games and things like that.  I had roommates who introduced me to stuff I hadn’t even heard of (Naruto, Guilty Gear, things like that).  I also met my partner, too.  I mean I was still the only plus sized black girl in the group, but at LEAST we shared a common interest.

I really do mean it when I say that the geek community is awesome.  I mean yeah, I got bashed, but look at the response that has had.  The bashing happens and it sucks, but I feel like I already went through worse, in a way, because I grew up being the odd one out.  I mean I’m still the odd one out here on the geek scene because how many plus sized black women exist as a character in an anime or video game or whatever, but at least here, when I decided to say “fuck it I’m going to cosplay who I want” the overall response was positive. 

I do still have moments of being worried about what people will think.  I still have that voice in my head about how odd I am.  It’s hard to quiet it down because I went through so many years of being “the weird one.”  Again, not that the kids at my high school were cruel, but I certainly wasn’t hanging out with them after school or talking with them during lunch and stuff.  So sometimes when I go to a con or something I think, “I’m going to be the only black person here.”  Actually, I think I tend to think that more than the plus sized thing, because I do see plus sized people doing their thing  :)  I just… I have a bunch of things going on at once, like, “You’re plus sized AND black AND dating a girl who is white, btw,” and just… yeah.  All and all, I just learned to be me and be pleasant and happy  <3

Oct 17

alolapancakechu asked: i know you've probably gotten TONS of asks like this already but your article on plus size/diverse cosplayers really made me feel better about for once cosplaying someone I want to over someone who may match my body type. I wish more people were as awesome as you! Thank you for having the courage to do what you love because it's given me and others the courage to do the same.

You know I want to have some awesome response but I can’t stop staring at your name and icon and laughing hysterically… 

acryingromanwithababy asked: You know what? I'm going to cosplay now. I've always been afraid too because im a big girl too. I've been afraid of what people would say or what would happen, but you've shin me it's not about body type but dressing up and geeking out and HAVING FUN!!! So thanks you beautiful person :)

Thank you for your message, and yes!  Go out there and cosplay  <3  Cosplay your heart out!  Well… not literally, because you need your heart… but do all of the cosplay things!

781563899423-deactivated2014091 asked: You are literally the cutest mother fcking Peach! :D

Ah!  Thank you so much  <3  I was going to make a terrible joke but… ah, what the hell:

That’s peachy!  

Ugh that was really bad  -_-

inli-theshadowpriestess asked: I've been wanting to cosplay for years and after reading your article on xojane, I finally have the guts to do it. I've been seeing a lot more plus size cosplayers popping up and its really been inspiring me to do something myself. its nice to know there are other women like us out there and rocking it!!!! thanks!

Yes!  Cosplay all of the things!  Well… maybe not all of them because that would take forever, but cosplay the things you want  :)  Did you have a particular cosplay in mind?