ok internet, here’s an interruption in your daily rugged white dude dashboard.
this is cykeem white:cykeem is an up and coming male model who (i believe) just participated in his first fashion week. he is insanely beautiful.
i highly recommend you all join me in keeping a close eye in his career trajectory, because he’s an extremely talented model, and he is, imo, shockingly beautiful. everyone likes shockingly beautiful men, right? right.
struggling to breath
This is a real life Haven for our Hunters series. I’m not even kidding, this is what I imagined for Haven, all that’s missing is the dragon tattoo on his arm. Like, if the book series became a movie I would go and find this guy.
(via animehead)
mizzysbubble-deactivated2017010 asked: perceive myself and my self worth. So just thank you and continue being awesome, also where can I buy your books cause I will buy the heck out of those and if I ever make it anywhere close to where you are, I'd love to get it autographed (I'm from Egypt though, so it's gonna be a loooong flight xD). Lastly, sorry to spam your inbox, I just really wanted to say this for a while now.
Do not feel bad, this is not spam at all! <3 (and somehow tumblr broke your message in half, lol) I will have book details soon! I have two blogs for that: My own personal writing blog AND the writing blog for the Hunters, the series of books I’m doing with my wifey :)
Wow, love all the way from Egypt? That’s amazing!
dyptyque-deactivated20131116 asked: Aww baby girl don't be mad. If it's any consolation at all, your cosplay made me smile and damn that chicken needs to be in me. Maybe you need to wife me
Thank you so much! I’m actually not mad, it’s more like… frustrated that these assumptions about plus sized people are still going on. I mean… I’m 30 now, and these comments are the same type of comments I grew up with. You know, comparing you to an anime, assuming you eat a bunch, comparing you to a fat celebrity, just… it’s so old it’s like, “Really? Still? This is still happening?” But of course it is, because there will always be assholes, it’s just extra frustrating because there are great people who are scared to cosplay because of it.
First of all, we’re all geeks in costume. Like, come on, we dress up like fictional characters on an occasion that isn’t Halloween, you know there’s some “normal” people who are at the hotel just staring and thinking we’re the weirdest people around. You know you’re getting stared at when you go to get food in your costume. So why, oh why, are you picking on another person who is dressed up, too? If anything, shouldn’t you be happy that someone else gets it?
Second of all, cosplay is supposed to be fun. This is a fun activity. It shouldn’t be this difficult to have fun. It really shouldn’t. But it is, for a lot of people out there, because they’re worried about being made fun of. And, like I said in my article, chances are that these people have already been laughed at outside of the community, the last thing they need is to be poked at inside the community, too.
So… yeah, it’s mostly frustration, but I’m trying to turn it around into something positive, like, fried chicken joke? Fine, I’ll make some fried chicken. It was delicious and symbolic. And if someone sees that and realizes that, hey, yeah, this is silly I should be cosplaying too, then… awesome <3
mizzysbubble-deactivated2017010 asked: So I just wanted to say that I love you, and you are cute as all hell in that princess Peach cosplay. Also you're (and I mean that in the most friendly way possible - not trying to be creepy) Hawt and really pretty and just akldjfalksjfadslkjfasldkjfa. Most of all you're inspiring. I've been struggling with my weight all my life and while I decided that I want to lose weight for health reasons, reading your posts make me rethink my views on my body and body image and how I genuinely
Oh my <3 *hugs* Thank you so much for your compliments :) It’s not creepy at all ^^
So, it happened. I got my first comment on the article that went something like this:
Come on man!! Why would anyone let themselves
go like this, and claim to be proud to be
FAT???????????????????????????????????????
And here is my response, which I am sharing, because I think it’s important to say:
Because fat is nothing to be ashamed of. It’s a body type. I’ve been fat for a long time, from back when I was a kid. It doesn’t mean I’m lazy or that I “let myself go.” I still do all the things that skinny geeks do: cosplay, conventions, video games, anime, hanging out with friends, ect. Sorry I’m not the fat lump who sits on the couch and is depressed and beating themselves up, but realistically, most of us aren’t.
I can be proud because of what I’ve done in my life. I graduated college, I’ve published a book, I have two more on the way, I’ve written for a lot of geeky websites about the things I love, and I’ve been in a relationship for 12 years. I have a house, a car, and am writing on a daily basis, which is what I studied in college.
The things I’m proud of have nothing to do with my size, I didn’t accomplish these things because I’m fat nor did I treat my size like a handicap to stop me from doing the things I want. THAT’S what I’m proud of. Fat does not equal incapable.
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I’m really tired of this assumption that fat people are just lazy folks who don’t do anything, because that is so far from the truth that it’s laughable. Lazy people come in a variety of sizes, lazy is not something exclusive to fat people. Fat people can be active, hell, they ARE active. Fat doesn’t mean someone just gave up and decided to be a lump that eats all the time and does nothing else, despite what the weight loss commercials will tell you (oh whoa is me I’m so sad and fat that I can’t even get up and play with my kids but with diet pill plus now only did I lose weight but I went to the hair salon and went shopping for new clothes). Despite what the media will tell you, I:
1. Do not eat all the time
2. Am not single and miserable
3. Am not friendless
4. Do not have fat, miserable friends
5. Do not have a hatred/jealousy towards skinny people
6. Do not try to fool myself into fitting into a size 12 when I’m a size 26/28
7. Am not stuck wearing hideous clothes
8. Am not incapable of “being pretty”
Here is the truth about me:
1. I eat the same amount as any other person, I’m not gorging on an entire chicken or eating ice cream for dessert
2. I have been in a relationship for 12 years
3. I have a lot of friends who come in a variety of sizes, from fat like me to skinny as can be
4. I do not hate my skinny friends. I am not jealous of them. I love them, and to that extent
5. I do not think they are friends with me because they pitty my fat existence, they are not trying to change me and I wouldn’t even be cosplaying this much if it weren’t for them
6. I’m a big girl who wears big clothes. So what. There are places with clothes that fit us right (thank you Lane Bryant for existing) I’m not a big girl who tries to squeeze into something she can’t fit, if it’s not comfortable I ain’t wearin’ it.
7. Despite be being in denial about my cuteness when people bring it up, that’s just me being blushy and flustered. Truth is, I’m pretty damn cute.
Now if you’ll excuse me, I have to purchase Pacific Rim and geek all over it when it arrives in the mail.
And this is why I put myself out there. These assumptions are not only terrible, but they’re old and inaccurate. Fat does not, does not, does NOT mean incapable.
clairelaferret asked: Do you sing? Would you sing for us?
Noooooooooooooooo, no no no, no, no. No. *blushes like crazy* I only sing in the shower or in the car, lol!
aislynneluna asked: I was thinking that maybe your next Cosplay should be one of the Muses from Disney's Hercules. :)
*gasp*
This… t-t-this is a brilliant idea, omg! <3 <3 <3
I thought this would be fun to answer, since I got a lot of new followers (I see that 800, christ on a pogo stick) and all :) Feel free to answer these too, if you want.
First anime: Vampire Hunter D (and back then we called it Jap-animation or Japan-imation)
First anime series: Dragon Ball (back then they only aired six episodes)
First anime you realized you shouldn’t be watching because your parents would flip out: Wicked City
First anime series you realized was edited: Sailor Moon, thanks to a Suncoast employee breaking it down for me (aka: “OMG THEY ALL DIE?!” and also “OMFG THEY AREN’T COUSINS?! Well… o.k. actually I figured that wasn’t the case but still…)
First fandom: Gundam Wing, also know as how I discovered yaoi, how I discovered fanfiction (which I had already been writing I just didn’t realize it had a name), my first introduction to roleplaying and how I met my wifey
First OTP: Online: Heero and Duo (1x2). In my ratty notebook: Vegeta and Bulma.
Honorable mentions: Harley and Ivy, Gambit and Rogue, Robin and Batgirl, Aladdin and Jasmine, Belle and Beast, Liu Kang and Kitana, Zack and Kelly from Saved by the Bell (shut up I was really young), Tommy and Trini (because I didn’t like Kimberly and thought Trini was cooler), Buster and Babs Bunny (no relationship), Sonic and Sally. I’m probably missing some
First yaoi pairing (canon): Yuki and Shuichi from Gravitation. Also, Gravitation was my first canon yaoi anime that I watched.
First yuri pairing (canon): Uranus and Neptune from Sailor Moon, once I realized it
First hentai: Does Wicked City count? Otherwise, the answer is Bible Black, thanks to a random search engine on my college campus
First anime to make you cry: Ai no Kusabi
First tragic pairing: Seishiro and Subaru, god, even now they are my top angsty pairing
First really cracky anime: Excel Saga
First anime that disappointed you: Tenchi Muyo, because I really liked the OVA but I didn’t like the series as much
First time you didn’t like a dub: The new DBZ dub, at first, after FUNimation got it. It had been several years, I’ll never forget, because it originally ended up Goku arriving to Namek but then played reruns over and over again. Then, years later, it picked up where it left off on Cartoon Network. It threw me off because all of the voices were different. At the time, I didn’t understand that there were different studios and things like that. I adjusted to the new dub eventually.
Honorable mention: Same thing happened with Sailor Moon, they got new voices and I didn’t like them at all at first.
First anime you didn’t know was an anime: Speed Racer
First video game: Super Mario Brothers (NES)
First mature rated video game: Mortal Kombat (before ESRB existed)
First game you saw with nudity: Doom and the strip club, courtesy of my dad, not even kidding
First video game that made you feel like you weren’t a "real” girl: Virtua Fighter at the arcade. I went to play against a boy to impress him. I beat him and he walked away, pissed at me. I didn’t realize I was doing something wrong and that girls didn’t play video games.
First game where you stopped giving a fuck about your girl bits: Killer Instinct. I brought it to school on a day we were having a party and I beat the crap out of my entire class with a smirk on my face.
First game where “oh my, I’ve never play video games before, tee hee”: Marvel vs. Capcom 2, after my high school prom, with my hair and nails done and all.
First game where your girlness was blatantly picked at: Soul Calibur 2 at Anime Central one year, I was in like and they kept skipping me, thinking that I wasn’t playing. I beat the crap out of my opponent with Talim. No regrets.
First game to scare the crap out of you: Nightmare on Elm Street on the NES (I’m so lame)
First game where you completed everything like a nutcase: Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time
First cheap boss who took way too long to beat: M. Bison in Street Fighter 2 on had mode. Also, Shao Kahn from Mortal Kombat 2. Fuck them both – if you could even get to Shao Kahn because Kintaro was a dickhead. Also, Robot Sonic/Final boss in Sonic 2, because you got no coins >.<
First time you learned that leveling up has to be done or else: Final Fantasy 7. I jumped into the crater unprepared. I regret everything, but somehow I did manage to beat it.
Quickest game you beat: Kingdom Hearst in 2 days, I did not sleep. I’m not counting fighting games because, yeah…
Game you put the most hours into: Persona 4. Well over 100.
First game to make you sad or cry: Final Fantasy X
Most addicting game: The Katamari series
First handheld: The Game Gear
Most underrated series: Guilty Gear, it really needs more love
motorchop-deactivated20200702 asked: The gifs about no excuse for being wasted, it's from the show, "Some Girls". It's on BBC3.
Ah, thank you so much! Of course it’s from something on a channel I don’t have, but at least it’s an answer :) It’s just a really good series of quotes *__*
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