Warnings: Random. Ramblings. Nanowrimo. My writing. Gay romance talk. Shortest Distance from A to B talk. Because I can’t stop thinking about it, man! But it’s mostly talks about my writing. Honest. Sort of?
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So like.
I’m writing my story for Nano.
And I hit the climax.
And I’m like, “YES!”
Even if I feel like a piece of shit as I write it, because it’s a terrible scene.
Not like written terribly.
Though it probably is.
Just like, a moment that makes you feel like a bad person.
Like, I did this to these people.
I caused these tears.
And didn’t offer a Kleenix to wipe them away.
I guess I like tormenting my characters just like like I to see my favorite characters tormented?
Why is that, anyway?
Why must we hurt?
Why must they hurt?
Hurt.
Why?
That’s probably why I liked the newest chapter to Shortest Distance so much, OH SNAP, nope not gonna stop talking about it because IT HIT ME IN THE FEELS!
Anyway.
Not judging that writer.
Or the Kanji and Naoto feels she caused.
And not gonna stalk her for a new chapter.
Not gonna show up at her house like.
“Hey. How’s it goin’ today? Was just in the neighborhood, thought I’d drop by with a cake.”
Then smash it on the ground.
Like.
“That is what you did to my feels.”
Where was I going with this?
Oh yeah!
So for my story, the Double H one.
The gay romance.
With supernatural elements.
That’s a murder mystery.
That’s like an episode of Law and Order.
With special guest hateful bigot villain.
Who is actually attracted to pretty boys.
But hates himself for it.
But places the blame on them, because you know, it’s their fault.
No I have no idea how I got this idea.
When I started this he wasn’t even that bad.
Now there’s bleach and writing on dead bodies.
Like.
I HATE YOUR FACE but you have a nice smile.
Help me I’m scared.
But I know where the story is going, because I have an OUTLINE!
So I’m all happily typing.
Listening to the Persona 4 music that plays in my head.
Reach out to the TRUTH of my life…
Then it hits me.
What if… I just…
… DO ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING THAT ISN’T ON THE OUTLINE!
That sounds like a great idea, right? That’s what outlines are for, right? To not follow them in any way whatsoever.
Well… I mean… the ending is going to be the same, I think?
Justice will prevail and all that.
The cute boy will get the cute boy.
I’m fairly certain this is how this will end.
Fairly certain.
Fairly.
Certain?
At least my joint story with my lady is going according to plan.
Except for the constant emails back and forth today that COMPLETELY ADDED A WHOLE NEW PLOT!
Not that it effects anything we’ve already come up with.
It just absolutely effects EVERYTHING WE’VE COME UP WITH!
Why is writing full of so many broken feels?
