Don’t try to be something you’re not.  There’s nothing wrong with being geeky.  Just because the girls around you are dating, and sleeping with boys, doesn’t mean you have to feel bad for not doing it, too.  It’s great that you’re not doing it, because frankly, you’re not interested in those things.  There’s nothing wrong with wanting to do homework, play video games, and watch DBZ.  That is who you are.  Later in life you’ll realize that there’s an entire community out there with people just like you, who will think you’re awesome for being you  :)

Now, when you have you very first girl crush, DON’T PANIC!  It’s all right to like girls, o.k.?  Maybe you were never interested in sleeping with boys because you’ve liked girls all this time, who knows.  But when you meet her, just go with it, you won’t regret it.

Also, follow your writing dreams.  Just because your brother passed away doesn’t mean you need to change your dreams to being a doctor.  You won’t be happy in that field, your heart will always go back to writing.  Don’t let the words “writing isn’t a real job” scare you away.  Let me tell you, writing is a lot harder than you think.  There’s going to be challenges on the way, but in the end I feel that it will be worth it.  That’s still a lesson I’m trying to learn myself, but I have a feeling that it will turn out well.

Don’t stop with your art.  Don’t forget that you love to draw, and paint, and all of that stuff.  It will take you places, it might take a while, but you will get somewhere with it.  Remember when your mom and dad said to not waste your talent?  LISTEN TO THEM!  Don’t waste away in retail because you feel like its safe, don’t stay with it because it’s a job and “there’s no jobs available.”  Don’t let yourself be miserable everyday.  It’s possible to do what you love and be able to live comfortable with it.  It won’t happen right away, but it will happen.  

So stay geeky, stay positive, keep writing, and keep doing crafts.

Love,

Your future self  :)