I'm tired of living in this Huxleyan Dystopia. I'm tired of the sheer escapism that the populace are doing. I just want this nightmare to end. I hate humanity, but at the same time I have a shard of hope for it. Yes this hypocritical, but that is how I feel. I have no else to rely on anymore because they are now living in a delusional fantasy. I refuse to conform myself in this false hope delusional fantasy. I just wish someone out there knows this type of anguish malice type of emotion.