I’ll never get hate blogs or hate in general, really. I can’t imagine my life being at a point where I feel good tearing someone else down, let alone someone I don’t even know. Like what goes through someone’s head when they see someone’s picture online? ”Who is this person? They’re fat! I should let them know in the most insulting way I can come up with which is actually terribly cliche.”
I think the reason why I always post this stuff and share my responses and feelings to it is because there are way too many people who won’t put themselves out there because of these people. There are so many people who want to cosplay and just won’t because they’re worried about this random person attacking them, so I figure, “Hey look, this person over here? Called me a cow. Know what I did? Kept cosplaying. Got some books published. Went to a bunch of conventions to get my books out there. Had a blast.” Because I know what it feels like to get that hate and then sit in your room and wonder if they’re right about you, and no lie those comments do hurt, no one wants to get hate on. But I don’t know these people, I don’t know why they have issue with me, why they can’t just hit the next button if they don’t like what they see. And I realized that, damn Bri, these are the SAME kinds of comments you got growing up. It’s the same shit! It’s ALWAYS the same shit! They have nothing to say about my cosplay, but my weight, or the color of my skin, THAT they can preach on for days. It doesn’t matter how the costume looks, they just want to poke fun at a fat girl.
And I realized… wow… that’s pretty sad.
And I realized that this happens to EVERYONE. It’s not just fat that gets bashed, everything, EVERYTHING does. I’ve seen amazing cosplayers get cut down because they’re black. I’ve seen thin cosplayers get cut down because “you’re just doing it for attention.” We all have insecurities and we all deal with people who are just so ugly on the inside that they feel the need to shoot you a message in an attempt to make you feel like shit. I mean hell, that Reddit post with me and the other Wonder Woman? Someone called her anorexic because she’s thin! It’s just not worth stressing over, at least not to the point of stopping what you’re doing. If you feel bad for hate, that’s fine, just don’t let it KEEP you down. Keep doing what you do, keep having fun with it, keep enjoying it, you’re opinion of yourself is what matters most :)