I swear everything I do is going to equal fat to some people. 

Have a college degree in English and Women’s Studies? That’s glorifying obesity.

Get an award from my Women’s Studies Department? That’s glorifying obesity.

Get a book published? That’s glorifying obesity. 

Get another book published? Double the fat.

A third? Triple cheeseburger!

Two short stories? Super-size me.

Edit books? With a side of fries!

Snuggle with my cats? That’s glorifying obesity. 

Plan my wedding? Obesity. 

Cosplay? Obesity. 

Woodburn? OBESITY!

All these things are bringing me closer to death because everything I do is glorifying obesity and obesity kills and people are just concerned for my well being so obesity obesity OBESITY! No matter what I do there’s always going to be those people who only see the chunkiness of my size instead of my accomplishments, which is why I always say do the things that make you happy, don’t worry about these people. You could invent a way to breathe in space without a helmet and be a godsend to NASA, but these people will still tell you that you’re showing fat people how to be lazy because now they don’t have to put any effort into lifting their arms up to put on the helmet. 

Just keep doing you, o.k.?

You know some people give others a hard time if they don’t make their own cosplays, if they buy them or someone makes them for them or whatever and… I’m wondering why no one has said anything to me about this? I don’t make my costumes at all, my partner does. Not that I think anyone should be hassled about cosplay whether they buy it or not, but… what makes me the exception? Is it because we’re together? 

Or is it because there’s other things to focus on (weight, race, ect)? 

All and all I think if you want to cosplay you should just do it, I mean I WANT my partner to take commissions and make people costumes so why would I ever have issue about people not making their own? Taking commissions is how some people make a living, and on top of that, again, I don’t make my costumes so who am I to be like, “Ugh how dare him/her not make their own cosplay.” I sketch ideas, sure, and maybe I’ll paint something, but that’s about it. I’m essentially the model, if you will, that shows off what my partner can do. And I have a damn good time while I do it  :)

I’m thinking it’s because when I cosplay if someone wants to bash me for something, it’ll be over my appearance versus who makes it for me, you know, because I’m plus sized and black and all that jazz. I find this interesting, because I feel like to a bully its like, “Ugh she shouldn’t cosplay at all,” so the last thing on their mind is how the costume came to be. I’ve rarely gotten bashed over the quality of the costume, but because, “She’s eating herself to death,” and, “whale,” and things like that. When I do get comments on the costume itself and its a critic, its simply that: a critic, and usually one that makes my partner go, “Oh man I should’ve thought of that,” or, “I’ll remember that for next time, thanks!" 

In the end bullying doesn’t discriminate, it just comes in different forms, you know? Some people get bashed for weight, for race, for being "fake,” for not making their own costumes, it’s just all kinds of ridiculous. You can be too fat, too skinny, too sexy, the wrong color, an attention whore, boring, too tan, too tall, too short, not the right gender, and all sorts of things according to a bully. 

That’s why I always say just be happy with what you do, because no one else is going to cosplay a character in the way you would. There’s no one else who is going to smile the way you do, going to laugh the way you do, pose the way you do, and love a character the way you do. Cosplay the way you want, and show your love in your own way, because that way is your own <3 Buying a costume doesn’t mean you can’t bring your love and charm to it. My costumes are made for me, and I bring my smile to them all the time.

So here’s me and my partner/costume maker/coauthor/love of my life. Without her, I wouldn’t be in any of these cosplays <3