This is the only boy who hasn’t experienced any angst, protect him at all cost
I’m silently hoping that he’s this season’s Rei, as in, he says the thing that the angsty characters need to hear and ends up being the giant, lovable hero for the story <3 You go little Mikoshiba, stag beetles and all!
Headcanon: Push Through
I haven’t written a headcanon in a million years but whatever.
***
Just push through.
Slow, deep breaths.
Reach forward.
Slowly, carefully.
Don’t wince, don’t let him know, don’t let him see. But he does, he knows there’s something wrong.
He opens his mouth to ask, to say your name. “Sousuke?” It’s soft, always so soft, so delicate, when he’s concerned about something. “Are you all right-”
You’re quick, too quick for him to keep up with. You’ve had practice, you can work through the pain. You catch him off guard with a smile, take advantage with a kiss, and let your fingers linger on the blush of his cheeks.
A kiss, just one, can get you through anything, even a shoulder that’s beyond repair, a shoulder that’s probably crushed the very dream that Rin holds for you. You don’t tell him, you’ll never tell him, instead you let your lips rest gently against his.
Everything is fine. Everything is o.k. You two are going to swim together beautifully as a team.
Just push through.
Slow, deep breaths.
Reach forward.
Slowly.
… carefully.
***
*files under “the last episode wrecked me” category of the Free! fandom*
What dream? What future? It’s you who cares about all that, I’m not you! I don’t have any of that!
Also (since I have so many thoughts on this episode) shout out to Free! for showing this kind of situation. Sometimes, people see so much in us (Rin seeing the potential in Haru), and people want us to go so far and know we can. However, sometimes, we’re just not ready for that, sometimes its too much to handle, and sometimes we just break.
This is probably a particularly hard blow for Rin because he’s said time and time again that Haru and the others have saved him. Without Haru, he wouldn’t even be swimming right now. So to see someone you’ve placed on such a high pedestal snap and say something like, “I’m not like you,” and, “What future,” and other such words is painful as hell.
But honestly, Haru is speaking the truth. Just because everyone is ready for him to take that next step doesn’t mean that he is, and that much pressure can really, really effect you. And let’s face it, high school is when you’re expected to know what you want to do, not just after high school, but for the rest of your life. You’re supposed to have a plan for yourself, but that’s not the case for Haru. Hell, that’s not the case for a lot of people. So, you know, kudos to the show for taking the most gifted person and having him say, “I don’t have a plan, o.k.?!”
All right all feels aside, honestly? This was such a great way to show what panic feels like, and how it feels to be so pressured. What hurts the most is when you’re pressured to do something you love doing.
curled up on the fucking floor, should be in the god damn hospital PAIN.
BECAUSE HE WAS TRYING SO FUCKING HARD TO SWIM
so he can be there for this little beauty
if this isn’t love
I don’t know what love is.
This is so true. I mean no matter what your feelings are about Sousuke, just… omg he is obviously so in love with Rin, and I’m so terrified that Rin’s world is about to come crashing down because not only did Haru just snap at him, but Sousuke is in so much pain right now, and… ARGH THIS FUCKING EPISODE!
This is the story of a geeky anime/gaming gal by the name of Chibi. Please fasten your seat belts and prepare for... some sort of ride? Oh! I love to write, and I also love doing crafty things. I go to conventions with my partner and sell woodburned things, clocks, mirrors, and more! So expect to see those on here too :)
