more from my super self indulgent manger!sousuke celebrity swimmer!rin AU~ i’d like to think sousuke can be a pretty manipulative manager (maybe even as much as nagisa) since rin can be really stubborn, he’s the only one that can actually handle rin eheheh
i want to try to aim for making a fanzine out of this AU! half will be things ive already posted/will post, half of it will be book-only content. (part comic/part illustration) i’m excited to draw more for it ovo
I never really thought that Sousuke hated Haru, it’s just a combination of things, you know? At a young age he thought he screwed up with Rin, then Rin leaves to go swim with Iwatobi, then he goes to Australia, stops writing him, Sousuke fucks up his shoulder, sees Rin come back in that race and is in so much pain, sees him happy again by swimming with Iwatobi. I mean… even taking all of the points above into account there’s also the fact that Sousuke’s best friend left to join another team, and what pain he went through he found happiness with that other team, and not his best friend, and that has to suck.
And I bet part of Sousuke is like, “Well at least this guy is talented,” but Haru wanted to do nothing with his talent so that’s frustrating, yeah? "So this is the guy Rin went to and he’s not even doing anything, and here I am, injured, not able to accomplish this dream with Rin. Rin and I had the same dream, this guy could care less about dreams, but that’s who Rin is attached to now.“ I mean… that sucks. A lot of things have sucked for Sousuke but, here, he can still smile at Haru, because he’s doing something, and I think that shows a huge level of respect on Sousuke’s part. Instead of being like, "Oh here we go again Rin and his need to do this for Haru,” it’s, “Well that’s good, he’s finally going to reach his potential.”
I love that almost sad, content look on Sousuke’s face when Rin breaks down, like, “He cares, he cares so much, it wasn’t just me who wanted this, but he did, too. And even if we can’t reach the stars together, we can at least touch them, just once, together.”
Can I just say many thanks to Free Eternal Summer and Sousuke for being a character who shows to NOT push too hard for your dreams? A lot of times we’re told to keep pushing, to keep going, to make our dreams come true.
But there’s a balance.
If you push too hard you can really hurt yourself, and not just if your dream is to be an athlete, but any dream. For instance, I work from home and write and make crafts, then promote my work and sell things at conventions. I figure out what conventions to go to and send out all of our information to try and get a table there. I also do freelance writing jobs, too. There are times where I stay up all night to get stuff done. There are times where I forget to eat because I’m working. There are times at conventions where I get up crazy early to get ready, even if I stay up crazy late beforehand. There are times where I just don’t see friends because I spend every moment I can getting ready. I’m working hard to make my dreams come true, but at the same time… you need to know when to stop and breathe.
Don’t overexert yourself. Don’t wear yourself out. Don’t take it too far. No matter how great it feels to reach your goals, you want to be able to actually reach them happily, not miserably.
I haven’t written a headcanon in a million years but whatever.
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Just push through.
Slow, deep breaths.
Reach forward.
Slowly, carefully.
Don’t wince, don’t let him know, don’t let him see. But he does, he knows there’s something wrong.
He opens his mouth to ask, to say your name. “Sousuke?” It’s soft, always so soft, so delicate, when he’s concerned about something. “Are you all right-”
You’re quick, too quick for him to keep up with. You’ve had practice, you can work through the pain. You catch him off guard with a smile, take advantage with a kiss, and let your fingers linger on the blush of his cheeks.
A kiss, just one, can get you through anything, even a shoulder that’s beyond repair, a shoulder that’s probably crushed the very dream that Rin holds for you. You don’t tell him, you’ll never tell him, instead you let your lips rest gently against his.
Everything is fine. Everything is o.k. You two are going to swim together beautifully as a team.
Just push through.
Slow, deep breaths.
Reach forward.
Slowly.
… carefully.
***
*files under “the last episode wrecked me” category of the Free! fandom*
curled up on the fucking floor, should be in the god damn hospital PAIN.
BECAUSE HE WAS TRYING SO FUCKING HARD TO SWIM
so he can be there for this little beauty
if this isn’t love
I don’t know what love is.
This is so true. I mean no matter what your feelings are about Sousuke, just… omg he is obviously so in love with Rin, and I’m so terrified that Rin’s world is about to come crashing down because not only did Haru just snap at him, but Sousuke is in so much pain right now, and… ARGH THIS FUCKING EPISODE!
This is the story of a geeky anime/gaming gal by the name of Chibi. Please fasten your seat belts and prepare for... some sort of ride? Oh! I love to write, and I also love doing crafty things. I go to conventions with my partner and sell woodburned things, clocks, mirrors, and more! So expect to see those on here too :)
